Wednesday, December 31, 2014

a whole bunch of fire

realize that I only had 17 shows and my fucking style changed so much because I was exposed to so much. So I’m a little older now, and I got other things to talk about. 

Friday, December 5, 2014

a guy wanted to Robb me tonight. He was hungry I know the look…

"all you negative muthafuckas should look at me as inspiration. I built a fucking monster and im not ever gonna fucking land. stop being scary and neagtive and start believing in yourself and stop living for all these other fucking idiots. some of yall should put that fucking blunt down and go do what the fuck you know you need to do. do it for yourself, i believe in everyone because i believe in myself. fuck reaching for the stars, thats setting a limit, fuck those. some of you dont like yourself. some of you arent comfortable with yourself. thats so fucking sad. stop that shit. cut that shit out and start liking yourself. when that happens, you will start trusting yourself, then you trust your ideas, then you fucking become that person you really want to be. if you dont have any confidence let me be your fucking confidence. im gonna be a fucking great years from now and i fully believe that and fully do not care about ANYONES opinion on why im not because i KNOW. start smiling more and start hanging around people that makes you feel good or make you want to be better. stop associating with LOSERS. if a friend only hits you up to smoke or drink or turn up and have nothing else to offer to get you where ever you think about being when you are alone daydreaming THEN GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THEM. time is going by soooo fast and before you know it you;re gonna be on your deathbed telling stories about how much you sucked and how you regret not living the life you wanted to live, loving the people you wanted to love, taking the chances you wanted to take. THERE ARE NO RULES, FUCK THE RULES. GO. FIND YOUR WINGS. I FOUND MY WINGS AND IM STILL FLYING AND I WILL NEVER EVER LAND. but some of you have to find yourself ya know. i knew the who i was at like age 10. i knew the music i loved the colors i knew what i was into. most of you listen to what ever is hot or what your friends like, yall dress how everyone else dress, yall do what everyone else do. FUCKING STOP BEING A FUCKING FOLLOWER. read the comments, the weak ass follower that will never make a difference ever cause they fucking SUCK are gonna say some shit like " easier said than done" or " you are a hyporcrite" or " you changed" or some stupid shit like that, cause they are most like the weak fuck im talking about and cant cope with it, cause they are scared. DONT BE SCARED. idk why im typing this. im just drawing and listening to music and just realized oh wow, im on a vacation for no reason, this is crazy, ive dreamed of this, how did i get this far, oh yeah, by trusting myself and not following that path my mom wanted me to go, and surround myself with other people that wanted more outta like and trust my wild ideas, and i put my art out and people liked it and trusted me, and now im here. i guess what im trying to say is i want everyone to win. i want everyone to smile, i want everyone to be in a good mood and as annoying and always jumping around like me cause im so fucking happy and grateful, but i realize people is scared. or who knows, maybe im just a special one. i dont know anything. RACISM IS FUCKING WEAK AS FUCK love you, today i want you to find your wings."

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Bronx Legends Never Die

Christopher Rios, whose rap name was “Big Punisher” or Big Pun for short, was born November 10, 1971 om Bronx, New York.    He caught his big break in 1995 when he met Fat Joe and appeared on his song “Watch Out.”  His first hit was “I’m Not A Player” in 1997 and peaked at No. 3.  He produced two albums during his short career, and after struggling with his weight for most of his life, he died tragically at the age of 28, weighing almost 700 pounds.  Here are 10 little known facts about Big Pun’s life and career.

1. As a child, Big Pun grew up being fairly athletic playing basketball and boxing.

2. Big Pun left home at age 15 and eventually dropped out of high school after enduring a rough home life that included witnessing his mother’s drug abuse and his father’s death.

3. At one point, he was homeless and forced to stay in abandoned buildings, but Big Pun took control of his own education and was an avid reader.

4.  Big Pun began writing rap lyrics in the 1990s after having a child with and marrying his girlfriend Liza who he had dated in junior high school.  The couple eventually had two more children.

5. Big Pun’s first rap name was Big Moon Dog which he used when he formed the group Full a Clips Crew.  Just before forming the group, Big Pun received a settlement worth an estimated half million dollars from a lawsuit his mother had filed against the city of Manhattan for a broken leg he had received while playing in a municipal park as a young boy.

6. After meeting Fat Joe and appearing on his song “Watch Out,” Big Pun joined the Terror Squad with Fat Joe.  The group was made up of Latino rappers, and Fat Joe eventually helped Big Pun negotiate a contract with Loud Records.

7.  Big Pun’s first album was “Capital Punishment,” which was released in 1998 and eventually rose to the No. 1 spot on the R&B/hip-hop album charts.

8.  Selling more than 2 million copies of “Capital Punishment,” Big Pun was the first Latino rapper to go platinum, and he became a hero to many Puerto Ricans.

9. Big Pun’s second album, “Yeeah Baby,” was completed before he died but was released posthumously.  The album peaked at No. 3 on the Billboard charts and earned gold record status within three months of being released.

10.  Big Pun’s final album was the posthumous compilation of his work entitled, “Endangered Species.”  The album peaked at No. 7 on the Billboard 200.

Big Pun often stated that his overreating was driven by depression and concerns about providing for his family.  

You're so, you're so... so thick, so thick"

I never forget a face

Understand: people judge you by appearances, the image you project through your
actions, words, and style. If you do not take control of this process, then people will see
and define you the way they want to, often to your detriment. You might think that
being consistent with this image will make others respect and trust you, but in fact it is
the opposite—over time you seem predictable and weak. Consistency is an illusion
anyway—each passing day brings changes within you. You must not be afraid to
express these evolutions. The powerful learn early in life that they have the freedom to
mold their image, fitting the needs and moods of the moment. In this way, they keep
others off balance and maintain an air of mystery. You must follow this path and find
great pleasure in reinventing yourself, as if you were the author writing your own

Monday, December 1, 2014

There's no meaning to a flower unless it blooms.

It’s not death that I fear, it’s being comfortable in a cloud where nothing ever happens